Convened during the trip RCW and I took to the Culinary Institute last Friday. (Egads! Almost a week?)
We talked about Emma. Emma did not and does not know about BecsFest.
Emma's formal diagnosis is bipolar disorder. But RCW and I have been pondering the very real possibility that Emma has Borderline Personality Disorder.
Last night, I looked up all kinds of articles on it and since they are on the innerwebz, they must be true. Yes, Bipolar and BPD look a lot alike. Where the difference begins is that drugs for Bipolar work and can control it. As with all personality disorders I've read about (even in real books), you're pretty much stuck with it. If you can manage the symptoms some of the time, you're lucky. You're lucky if you're even cognizant that you're exhibiting the symptoms.
BPD scares me. People with BPD can be very dangerous without meaning to be. And as any good cyberchondriac, it made me afraid that I have it, but there are differences. As far as I can tell, Emma doesn't have any friends out there on the lone prairie. I learned this weekend that I do indeed have friends. There are people in the world who love me. (A curious thing to realize in the midst of being broken-up-with by the ever-absent Anonymous Boyfriend...)
Dr. Becs and Dr. RCW put their darling heads together and came up with a diagnosis that rings very, very true for Emma. It's not easy to see her in this light, but I think that's the only bulb that's lit on this string.
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